i cant keep going on like this. i need to change. i need to stop being like this. i want so many things back, i want to go back to being what i was 4 years ago. without the violence and emo. just the strong, optimistic, hardworking, enthu young kid. with my maturity now.

it SUCKS to have to hide your feelings.
it SUCKS to play and lose all the time, cos you're not concentrating. back to bed.

0 work done today.