i found him.

i feel like i've seen someth i shldnt have.

it kinda hurts, to see this kinda thing. but i cant possibly come running to xuemiao cos of this. we're both tired today. and cel is tired too, i dont wanna disturb her. sean's busy too.

i have nobody to turn to, or i dont know who to turn to.

i dont know what to say even if i did.

these feelings are so tough.

maybe, just maybe, i should turn off my emotions and stone my way through life.

then life would be no fun. humans were given feelings and wants for a reason.

xuemiao, he's really not bad looking at all. he's much better looking than me.
looks like you two should never, could never have broken apart.

and ppl like me, who stand no chance against him, who cant come close to you, who's scared stiff of coming near you, who's become so afraid of doing something wrong to you...

what can i do? i cant do anyth for you. you're tired. you have others to depend on. you have your life. i'm so insignificant in it. you dont bring your file anymore, i cant help you that much.

i dont even dare to help you, or take same train with you.

where can i draw the line between friendship and chasing, when both actions feel like drawing two ppl closer?