you know what's called never learn from mistakes?

its when you repeat the mistake again and again when people already tell you to stop.

and thats exactly what i've been doing, for almost a year.

how can a person who can see so well be so damn blind?

yah, well. thats what i did.
cause of that, i lost more than one friend. and its not like i have a lot. a friend is more than classmate. its a person who when needs help, you'll go that extra mile to help. and i lost them. the people who mean a lot to me are all gone. haha. wow, i'm so dumb.

well, i've lost these friendships, and more of others that i havent listed or realised.

c-jan2008-aug-2009
cz-feb2006-aug2009
tc-feb2006-aug2009
lw-oct2008-aug2009

first people to lose. and the people who mean the most to me as well.

maybe, it wouldnt kill me to just stop violenting and listen.
but nobody tries to restrain me. where are you, the one who will restrain me? if its me, why haven't i learnt my own soul?